Question Four - When a thought occurs to me, do I immediate act on it without considering the consequences? In what other ways do I behave compulsively?

I’d have to say, this answer depends on the thought. Most of the time, a thought triggers another thought triggering a string of thoughts. Those strings lead to the compulsions. Centering on using, yes, I behave compulsively. When I’m faced with stress, the unknown, new environments, I automatically thing “I have to change it”, which led to me using.

Today, when I’m in the same predicament, I no longer turn to my DOC. I am able to make a different choice. However, my “different choice” is usually overeating – to the point I want to purge – but can’t. I still want to change the situation, the way I feel, the environment. In fact, when I was at the movies, I had to sit down because I couldn’t stand for an hour while waiting for a good seat. My first reaction was to grab something to eat to look busy. I was at a BBQ: I ate compulsively in order to not appear uncomfortable. I still want to change everything, and have turned to eating to do that.