Step One – Powerlessness and Unmanageability

We admitted we were powerless over our addiction, that our lives had become unmanageable.

~ Twelve Steps of Narcotics Anonymous.

So, I've been addicted to drugs since I was a teenager. I started at about 14 years old after being sexually abused by a boyfriend. I couldn't admit that I was an addict until a good friend died. That shocked me into a moment of clarity: I needed to do something different. So, I checked myself into treatment...Intensive Outpatient Program...and began attending meetings. My first meeting was in AA. I liked it because I fit in with the women there. Soon, though, I found myself at an NA meeting and have stuck around ever since.

I have a sponsor and we're working on my first step. We've gotten together once and read the first step in the book titled "It Works: How and Why". I've started answering the questions in the guidebook. I started out hand writing everything, but my hand gets so cramped...and besides that, I type WAY faster than I can write.

Hence the blog...

Occasionally, I will be vlogging as well. It's just a different way to express myself...especially when English words don't match.

So, here I go...