Question Five - How does the self-centered part of my disease affect my life and the lives of those around me?

Here's the funny part: I never thought of myself as self-centered. I still am not convinced. But, what I do know is that now that I am not using, I can't do jack shit. I feel more dependent upon people now more than I ever have in the past. I don't cook. I don't clean. I don't even shower. I don't remember the last time I brushed my teeth. Oh, yes, I do. It was the morning I woke up and couldn't stand my own breath.

I do get up and go to work. I work part time, 2 days a week for 2.5 hours a day. But, the responsibilities I have at home...I don't do them. I can't. I have nothing to "help" make my head stop spinning and going on and on and on. So, why would I think that my using was self-centered? I used in order to calm myself down...center myself...enough so I could do the things I needed to do.

I guess I struggle with this question. I really don't know how to answer it. Maybe Kelly can help me figure it out.