Plausable but untrue reasons for my behavior? I'm sure I have. I think one of the main reasons I give for my behavior is that I have believed (and still do sometimes...depending on the day) that I don't deserve much more in life. Having been abused as a teen, I decided that I would numb everything so I wouldn't get hurt.
I also sometimes tell myself that I'll start better behavior tomorrow, so I have permission to behave badly now.
Honestly, I didn't realize I was an addict because I was prescribed all my DOC and I truly had physical pain...a need for meds. But, I didn't realize I was going beyond that line, crossing over into addict territory.
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